Which I'm rather glad about... actually, but sadly i suppose i have to once in a while.
............... i hate being a capricorn.

Nothing big... but it was just wave after wave.

I visited her grave when I was in china, took me a long time to actually find it,
but my father was nice enough to leave me there for the mosquitoes to bite for while so i could rant to her. xD 
I got her a big bouquet of white lilies... and a card, or something. 
who's writes cards to graves? LOL, i do. 

... there was a lot of emo-ing and crap, but I made it through so my dad didn't realize i cried. 

I wanted to say goodbye, maybe it wasn't what i should have done, but I did. 
I wasn't going to forget her, but I wanted to not cry about it anymore.. perhaps it was enough, for me, 
Happy childhood was over, and I shouldn't cling onto it anymore. 

I read somewhere that capricorns only loves one or two people outside their family, usually, 
I think she was one of them.... I don't know, aren't I just lucky.  


Sometimes I never cry, but sometimes my tears just drop like the river. 
I think today's one of the let-out days. 
Sadly... The story will have to stay with me, I want to bury it... somewhere, not to forget it, but at least the feelings. 
If only i could just remember the love and not the sorrow, but unfortunately they come in the same pack. 





I was always good at saying goodbye, but aah... xD 
You made me cry, but like you said, you can only laugh after you cry. 

Anything in Bold is true~~~


I am a cuddler.
I am a morning person.
I am an only child.
I am currently in my pajamas.
I am currently pregnant.
I am currently single.
I am currently suffering from a broken heart.
I am left handed.
I am married.
I am addicted to my MySpace.
I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
I am a little shy around the opposite gender at first.
I bite my nails.
I can be paranoid at times.
I don’t like anyone.
I enjoy country music.
I enjoy jazz music.
I enjoy smoothies.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I have a car.
I have/had a hard time paying attention at school.
I have a hidden talent.
I have a pet.
I have a tendency to fall for the “wrong” guy/girl.
I have all my grandparents.
I have been to another country.
I have been told that I have an unusual sense of humor.
I have or had broken a bone.
I have caller I.D. on my phone.
I have bathed someone.
I have changed a diaper.
I have changed a lot over the past year.
I have done something illegal.
I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
I have had major/minor surgery.
I have killed another person.
I have had my hair cut within the last week.
I have mood swings.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I have rejected someone before.
I have seen the television show The O.C.
I have seen The Lord of the Rings trilogy.
I love sleeping.
I love to shop.
I own 100 CDs or more.
I own and use a library card.
I read books for pleasure in my spare time.
I sleep a lot during the day.
I strongly dislike math.
I was born in a country other than the US.
I watch soap operas on a regular basis.
I work at a job that I enjoy.
I would classify myself as ghetto.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I am currently wearing socks.
I am tired.
I love to paint/draw/sketch/sculpt.
I consume at least 1 alchoholic drink every month
I have a screen name.
Graduated high school.
Kissed someone.
Rode every ride at an amusement park.
Collected something really stupid.
Gone to a rock concert.
Helped someone.
Gone fishing.
Watched four movies in one night.
Been dumped.
Failed a class.
Dealt drugs.
Taken a college level course.
Been in a car accident.
Been in a tornado.
Done hard drugs.
Watched someone die.
Been to a funeral.
Burned yourself.
Ran a marathon.
Your parents got divorced.
Cried yourself to sleep.
Spent over $200 in one day.
Been cheated on.
Written a 10 page letter.
Gone skiing.
Been sailing.
Had a best friend.
Lost someone you loved.
Shoplifted something.
Been to jail.
Had detention.
Skipped school.
Got in trouble for something you didn’t do.
Stolen books from the library.
Been in a mental hospital.
Watched the “Harry Potter” movies.
Fired a gun.
Gambled in a casino.
Had a yard sale.
Had a lemonade stand.
Actually made money at the lemonade stand.
Been in a school play.
Been fired from a job.
Taken a lie detector test.
Swam with dolphins.
Gone to Sea World.
Attempted suicide.
Voted for American Idol.
Written poetry.
Read more than 20 books a year.
Gone to Europe.
Loved someone you couldn’t have.
Wondered about your sexuality.
Used a coloring book over age 12.
Had stitches.
Taken a taxi.
Seen the Washington Monument.
Had more than 5 IM’s/online conversations going at once.
Overdosed.
Had a drug or alcohol problem.
Been in a fist fight.
Had a hamster.
Petted a wild animal.
Used a credit card.
Gone surfing in California.
Did “spirit day” at school.
Dyed your hair.
Got a tattoo.
Had something pierced.
Got straight A’s.
Been on the Honor Roll.
Your parents sent you to a shrink.
Been handcuffed.
Known someone with HIV or AIDS.
Taken pictures with a webcam.
Started a fire.


lawl, kisunoyami  did this and I wanted something to do in my clupture class, but too bad my teacher started talking to me so i had to finish it at home. :V

wops totally haven't updated here for a while

( Bark  )

Ionno i got kinda busy so...

AAAAAAAAAH I STILL HAVEN'T TURNED IN MY ROUGH DRAFFFTTTTT *shootsself* 

by any means, the art rp is open on dA :B
poke-ac.deviantart.com/
JOIN TEAM AQUA DUDE!

Saye will give you lots of brownies :B

anyways here's the Team Aqua master in progress.


IM SO LAZY AAAAH

so my best friend created a pokemon group with her friend and i decided to steal a position :B

Saye - originally Asaka, ionno if anyone remembers him lawl, prince of the sirens in mah original story. Changed his eye color cuz i have too many people with peacock eyes. =W=; and a little bit of his hair (made the right side longer) since I didn't want to rip off my fav artist ;u;

still the same bitch he is in the original story, acts almost just like my other character Shizuri (Leland) XDD 

well now they look similar. crap.

ohwell.



don't mind his shiny gay lumineon. he likes his shiny fish.

Ionno started doing requests for headshots on the project a[e]sir forum so
=3=
I got to draw one of the awesome gunslingerz
now lemme go hit myself in the head k.




and my friend Leni asked me to practice piano with him *-*
WHAT DO I DO GIN SUCKS AT PIANO AND LENI IS PROBABLY REALLY GOOD AT VIOLIN *CRIES

so i guess it's he who's accompanying me instead of me accompanying him.
Have you ever heard of the violinist being better than the pianist? ==;;; 

*nervous breakdown*

Ionno I drew this dude a long time ago

Lumière Hogarth. (usually called Lue)
I was just making this for a rp with my friend Melissa XD

I've become quite attached to his right eye that's stitched together. LOL
he's quite the jerk.


and this is younger Lue:

Ionno i did that in 15 minutes. LOL




p.s: I think i forgot his long ponytail. oh well.

I think I'll make this journal a sketch blog, so i have a reason to draw crappy pictures 8D 

lawl. also to relieve a little stress, I suppose.

Although those of you who are my friends will still see my journals, I'll keep posting personal stuff that's friends-only of course. :>
Yay~~

to celebrate the coming opening of the blog...i drew a sample crappy picture.
*shot*



It's Ivan btw. :E

Tadaa-

I add people pretty easily i guess, if you tell me where you found me and why you want me to add you and such...
it's just that this journal can get personal at times XD